I listened to "Superman" by Five For Fighting. I felt something. Sadness, perhaps? I have no idea why. But it's like.. i don't know. Do I miss somebody? Probably. And who is this special someone? I guess I'm missing a lot of people lately. I don't want to mention any names because I know you guys know who you are. :)

I'm thinking about graduation. I guess I would feel depression deeper than this. I'm not considered as depressed. I do not know what this song made me ponder. Or who did I reminisce? Is it a "somebody" or a "something"? Sighs. This is very complicated. I want to see everyone. But at the same time, I'm really not yet ready to graduate and escape/exit from Elementary. Farewell, Elementary.. Hello High School? Omgosh.

What a fragment. Or let's just consider it as a sentence. Golly, I can't take this. What would happen to my wicked life if I graduate? Hopefully, I'd have a lot of new friends. Sociable friends, that is. I forbid backstabbers or traitors. Betrayals are a no no for me. So you better be 100% nice if you want to be friends with Clarisse. You don't know me.. yet. So don't judge me in a good way nor in a bad way. I'm partly good and partly bad. You truly have no idea who I am. Therefore, be ready. You're clueless when I'd bust a move.

I've realized that this new school year is absolutely different from last school year. I have regrets. I've done a lot of mistakes. And now's the right time to begin a new year. But it's turning out pretty unusual. Very different. And not so good. As far as I've seen, there are incidents happening. Incidents that aren't supposed to happen. First of all, arguments, ignorance, quarrels, hmm.. What else? It's between me and my best friends. Add three boys there, too.

As you can see, our friendship has been torn apart. I don't know whose fault it is. But I've got an idea. I won't tell you who that person is, but I'm just saying because it's only my opinion. Opinions of mine are different from yours. So you don't need to know who I'm referring to. I'm going to be frank, because of these ignoring situations, I have decided to stay with other friends and not hang out with my best friends anymore. Last school year was a fun year for me. But this school year is pretty not so typical. Well if you'll ask me, things have changed. Lots of things. Teachers left. Classmates gone. New people around. I mean, what the heck? I miss a lot of people, people don't notice me anymore... What else do you think is happening?

Ignore me, whatever. Ignore you, THANK YOU. Ding ding ding! Right answer! LMAO. I've been unknown recently. Haha not that I'm telling you that I'm popular. Actually, I was disreputable ever since. Don't need to know who Clarisse Zaplan is. Just a simple o' girl trying to be perfect in her own weird way. What do you think? Psycho! Everyone's imperfect. And everyone's just trying hard to be perfect. And why pester? Nothing's gonna change even if you're a perfectionist. Honey, you're just squandering your time for old times' sake. I have to say, this school year has just begun. And many other disasters would be stricken so thou shall wait for more tragedies to come.

Oh baby, save me from this misery!! (:

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