Ok, I know I always beg my mom so she would allow me for guitar lessons. But, I don't want to brag at people that I know how to use the guitar. That's not my intention on learning how to play the guitar. I really want to learn. I want to have a talent. I wanna be like any other kid who plays the guitar. I don't have any talent. I'm talentless. YES. I am. What instrument I could play? Piano. What songs do I know? Mary had a lil lamb. Twinkle Twinkle. Happy Bday and blah. See? Do you think you should call that as talent? Puh-lease. If people ask me what I am doing for this summer. NOTHING. Yeah. I even have pity on myself. I cried. Um, lots of times already. I know this is a stupid reason for crying. But hey, it means I really want to learn how to play the guitar. I envy Ella and other people who are learning how to use any kind of instruments right now. Oh c'mon! I am so pissed. I hate it. I have no talent. And I am now thinking negatively that when I grow up, I'm just going to be a lazy clown. LOL. Yes, a clown. A miserable ol' clown. I really want to learn how to play the guitar!!! Teach me oh teach me! A lot of my friends want to teach me, But I'm certain that my mom won't allow me.

That's why I don't ask her anymore for something. 'Cause I know at once what she will answer. What? "NO!". Tsk tsk. I hate it!! Dang. I can't take it anymore. If I had a child, I'll allow her anything! Anything that she wants to do. At least, she has experience. Me? I never had a chance to do something that I want! Well, I guess I did have a couple of times. But that happens seldomly. Like, seriously! I want something that I want. And you won't give it to me. You say it's too expensive and I know that. But, don't you see? Your child is hoping to be given that stuff desperately. And you won't give it? Gosh! Err. And you won't allow me for neither guitar lessons nor piano. You see, Clarisse always uses the computer.. My mom always tells me I'm lazy. Then why don't you allow me for guitar lessons so that I won't be lazy anymore?! ARGH. Feeling so much rage right now. I want to cry. But it's totally useless. I want guitar lessons! RIGHT AWAY. Santa! Although it isn't Christmas yet... Please grant my wish! Twinkle twinkle little star, I hope you grant my wish tonight! Oh well. Like that'll happen. THANKS ANYWAY. I hope it would happen. :|

Thank you for listening. Psh!

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